washboard abs. any abs at all. belonging to a team sport. belonging, full stop. having a nickname that wasn't used with derision. keg parties. scratch that. having a secret handshake/hi-five ritual. cruising down the strip. having a car to cruise down the strip with. knowing where said strip might be. having a favourite band. going to quirky cultural heritage days of which I'm weirdly proud. beach volleyball. not the "Top Gun" kind. not the "Dead or Alive" kind either. I'm not sure what I mean here. witheringly advanced political views. handing out Beat Poetry flyers. joining an amusingly mismatched club for a girl. getting more interested in the club's activities than said girl. a koi pond.